This is going to go badly.
So I met this guy and we started dating. He was great. Good looking, sweet, funny, cute and I get on well with him. After a few weeks of dating (prehaps fast for some people but right for us) we had sex. It was my first time. I didn’t regret it and I still don’t. He was great about it and didn’t pressure me or anything. Anyway so we continued going out and my friends heard about him and were all excited I had a “boyfriend” and I was really getting into it. About a month in I had flip out at him coz i was pissed with him about something he’d done and we fell out but only for couple of days, as soon as we saw each other and had the chance to speak to each other we were fine.
Then last week I went over and he told me that he’d been in weird complex relationship last year and wasn’t looking for anything serious and didn’t want to stop me getting actual boyfriend, he felt awful about it and said he really liked me and felt like dick for saying it. At first I said I was fine with it. But still had questions, after a lot of talking I decided that even though yes I would have liked it differently I was still in coz I did like him and before I met him I didnt want anything serious anyway. Also come september I’m going to Uni so getting into something serious is just gonna be heartbreaking and complicated when I move away. However I am now sat here thinking whilst we may not define ourselves as serious it won’t stop us (or me anyway) from becoming attached so september will be just as hard. And I am only gonna get hurt because I have already formed that attachment because I thought thats what he wanted. Now I have to try and deattach myself from it but that next to impossible. Esspecially as we aint a fuck buddy thing, we are dating and we do genuinely really like each other so it makes it complicated.
Basically I am going to get hurt and I know this but I like him and don’t want to leave coz that will hurt too. I just want to be happy while this lasts.
