So I went over to talk to my mate in the ref, partly coz I need to tell him something but mostly using it as an excuse to go over coz he’s sat with guy I kinda like. But I get over there, can’t look at the guy and then as soon as I feel him looking at me I end the conversation with my mate awkwardly fast and practically run out the ref.
I am not built for this whole boy flirting/attractiveness thing.
So monday night I hooked up with a guy. He got my number and called me so I had his but I didn’t wanna text him coz didn’t wanna be weird and didn’t know what I was even doing. Then tonight I bumped into him down at the uni bar, we chatted a couple of times but it was always brief and awkward. I wouldn’t be able to think of conversation or anything when he was there, then he went and I thought of something I could say that could of kept it going or could be bit more friendly you know?! But now its too late and ughh! I’m thinking I might just add him on fb tomorrow (later today) and message him basically saying hey, sorry and chatting a bit. Don’t want it to be awkward coz I’m gonna be seeing him either way and he seems cool and nice so wanna be friendly at least. UGHHH LIFE!! If anyone can help or give advice on my life/situation it would actually be appreciated!!?
No! This is a bad idea and I am NOT doing it! I know this is a bad idea but I keep going back there and I don’t know why! I must remove myself from the situation… Aghhh, I can’t deal with this! Why do I do it! It’s like I just can’t have a normal conversation with him! No! I am not doing this! I will change the subject. I will not let this happen!
Was good even if there were so few of us, booked another one for when I’m home again in a few months and went to town afterwards. Then other stuff happened and now Im going to watch a movie and sleep